I can have a hard time expressing my thoughts and feelings verbally and have found that writing helps. This entry will be very casual as my mental energy is low so this list will have to do (plus, I like lists). Without further ado, below are words that come to mind when I reflect on the past week:
out of control
Obviously not the *best* week, but just writing these down makes me feel a bit better.
So 2016. I thought that 2015 tested me both mentally and physically, but 2016 didn’t give me much of a break. I’m not really sure how I feel about it. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t a terrible year. There were plenty of great things that happened and I continued to grow and challenge myself – even when I felt like I had done all the “growing” I could (or wanted to).
I’ve compiled my “monthly reviews” (click on the month to check out the post) from the past year and included some of my favorite things. Checking out my old posts was quite an exercise as sadly I forgot a good chunk of things that happened…
Enjoy and here’s to an even better year!
Favorite Book: What Alice Forgot by Liane Moriarty & Sweetbitter by Stephanie Danler
Favorite TV Show(s): Pretty Little Liars, Veronica Mars, & New Girl
Things ended with the guy that I was “dating” – his loss
Started “relapsing” with my eating disorder
Re-Highlighted hair, but not a fan of how it turned out. But I suppose that’s what you get when you go to a school to save money
Went to the 12 Days of Christmas exhibit with my parents at the Dallas Arboretum
More job interviews…
Started practicing yoga again
Too much alcohol and sweets… (yay Holidays!)
Was let go from my job
Christmas Eve Mass and Christmas light-looking with my parents
New Year’s Eve – Kept it simple with a party at my friend’s house
TV/Movies This is Us, Season 1 New Girl, Seasons 4 & 5 It’s a Wonderful Life Christmas Vacation White Christmas Miracle on 42nd Street (1994)
Books Stern Men by Elizabeth Gilbert Truly, Madly, Guilty by Lianne Moriarty First Comes Love by Emily Giffin
This can be a tough time of year for many people. I’m one of those people that struggles to be “happy” over the holidays. Many reasons contribute to it being a challenging season. In particular, it marks the time of year I entered treatment, resistant to change.
Sometimes it feels like my journey began yesterday and others it seems like was longer than the *7* years when I stepped through that door.
To put it lightly, life after leaving what had ironically become my “safe place” was not easy. I was not “cured.” I encountered obstacles I had never dreamt of. But I’m still here. Still fighting – obviously with a multitude of support from professionals, my family, my friends, and even strangers.
This holiday season I am looking forward to curling up to “It’s a Wonderful Life” with more mindfulness of how quickly life can change and the gratitude for my “Clarence(s).”