June Bugs

 

Last month was very busy, but things FINALLY began taking a positive turn last month. Keep reading to see what I mean:

My brother and sister-in-law visited from Georgia. I hadn’t seen them in over 5 months which was much too ling in my book. Plus, it was the first time that they got to meet my boyfriend (Facetime is nice, but not the same).

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Took my dad to a concert for an early Father’s Day gift – A Hard Night’s Day (Beatles cover band)

Started crocheting again

Visited our family friend’s new baby – it had been YEARS since I held a newborn

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Celebrated our family friend’s (the Faulkners) 90th birthday. Bill lives in Minnesota with his wife and his health has been diminishing due to Alzheimer’s Disease in recent years. I make a point to see him and his beautiful family as often as possible

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Started trying out BeachBody on Demand’s 7 day Shaun T workout. Even though I didn’t quite make it through (I’m not great at HIIT workouts), I enjoyed the other video options and was proud of myself for taking the initiative for working out at home.

Presented my Faith Share aka Life Story to my small women’s group – talk about emotionally draining…

Family Reunion in Iowa

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Started my new job!!!

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Celebration Dinner


Movies/TV

New Girl, Season 6
Lion
Wonder Woman 

Books

Food Freedom Forever​ by Melissa Hartwig
The Night Circus By Erin Morgenstern

 

What were the ups/downs of your June?!

I miss…

I miss him. Everything about him. His blue/green eyes, his dimples, the way he’d sing to me in the morning, how he’d carry me to bed when I fell asleep on the couch, drinking wine and binge-watching House of Cards, riding our bikes to the farmers market, the way he’d leave the cabinets open and half empty glasses of water everywhere. 

Waiting for him to come home, grocery shopping together, nights at “our” pub, him always knowing my order when we go out, surprising him with his favorite (mango) treats, leaving notes around the house for him to find. The way we just fit together. 

  

 

Stuck

It never really goes away
The emptiness
The void
Try as you may to fill it, to complete yourself. To feel whole again
Again. As if you ever felt whole in the first place
Not really
No
Always there
Always kind of there
Taking up space
Trying to pass the time
Waiting
Waiting for what?
To feel competent? Loved? Empowered? Needed?
They say if you wait for the right moment, you’ll be waiting for the rest of your life
I’m guess I’m waiting to be unstuck
To feel like I can become unstuck
For someone to pull me out of the mud I’ve become hardened in
I know I need to pull myself out
I just can’t muster the strength
Physical strength
Emotional strength

Wordy Wednesday: Advent Edition

Hope
(verb)
– to want something to happen or be true and think that it could happen or be true

Peace
(noun)
– a state of tranquillity or quiet
– a state in which there is no war or fighting
– freedom from disquieting or oppressive thoughts or emotions
– harmony in personal relations
– used interjectionally to ask for silence or calm or as a greeting or farewell

Love
(verb)
– a feeling of strong or constant affection for a person
– attraction that includes sexual desire : the strong affection felt by people who have a romantic relationship
– a person you love in a romantic way

Joy
(noun)
– a feeling of great happiness
– a source or cause of great happiness : something or someone that gives joy to someone
– success in doing, finding, or getting something

Mercy
(noun)
– kind or forgiving treatment of someone who could be treated harshly
– kindness or help given to people who are in a very bad or desperate situation
– a good or lucky fact or situation

Patient
(adjective)
– able to remain calm and not become annoyed when waiting for a long time or when dealing with problems or difficult people
– done in a careful way over a long period of time without hurrying

Penance
(noun)
– something that you do or are given to do in order to show that you are sad or sorry about doing something wrong

All definitions we found at http://www.merriam-webster.com/.